Lost in confusion.

You know something, just now, in class, we had this... Counselling session. More or less, because the counselor asked us to do an activity. That activity was to draw our palms, and then write our characteristics. This task was meant to be for two parties. One was the owner of the palm, and the other was their friends. It was kinda fun.. I always wondered what people thought of me.

But the thing is. I have no idea who I really am. So tell me, how would they know?

I'm the kind of person who acts happy even if I'm not... The likes. Aside that, I think I'm a horrible person. I like to observe and analyze. I'm very critical. I like to argue. I like winning too. I'm very arrogant. I might as well be a narcissistic person. I lack the vain part, though.

I don't want to change. I love who I am. Well, I love my personality. That's very narcissistic, isn't it? Proves my point.

The other thing I'm confused about is..

Am I abnormal?

I've gotten several comments that state I'm a particularly odd person. I'm not insulted. But it makes me think... What is this "normal"? Why don't I have that trait? Being different is good, isn't it?

Certain things that everyone else have seems very... Interesting. I think, I lack the understanding of human emotion. No, that's wrong. I've been studying that. What I lack is.. Realizing them. I'm probably too caught up in understanding it, that I neglected my own! Maybe. Who knows? There's a possibility that I'm NATURALLY like that. We'll see.

Now I'm not sure if I'm confused or not.

Bai bai.